Last night I ended up going to a quick dinner with Daniel. He has to go out of town on a business trip and by the time he gets back, I will be with my family for the holiday. We just did a quick dinner and hung out at my apartment afterward for a few. It was during that time at my apartment that I decided to tell him that maybe I was not able to date anyone right now. I explained that maybe I was a bit emotionally unavailable and maybe the timing was off with us right now. That is mostly true, but I did not want to tell him all the reasons why it just was not doing it for me. I am not perfect, in fact I am probably a bit of a mess and maybe the real reason is we really just do not mesh well.
He seemed pretty cool about it. He said he was in no rush, but he was into me, and if I just wanted to be friends right now he could deal with that. I have a feeling that is BS, but hey, the answer made me feel better. We did kiss a little, mostly goodbye, and then I walked him to the front door of my apartment.
It’s funny how in such a short time I went from total excitement about this boy to just not feeling it at all. Maybe the stress I am feeling in life right now, job, cousin having cancer, having to travel soon, is getting to me. Maybe after the holidays I will feel different. Guess only time will tell.
