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I took a hiatus. I needed it, things happened that I cannot even write about right now, because they will bring up emotion and I am not ready to deal with that. I hinted at it, Gavin is his name, and one day I will write about it.

So, I have been celibate since Austin. I think this is the longest I have ever gone without sex, and I have been having sex for 15 years now. It has been sort of nice, in truth. I have been concentrating on other interests and hobbies, not really worried about men or boys and well, just doing other things.

But it is almost Spring time and it is time for me to get back into my groove.

I have been on a few shitty dates, just 30+ year old men with too much baggage. I was on a date a few Friday’s ago and literally the guy told me that if his ex called him today, he’d go back to her. I was home that night at 10pm.

But something funny happened that night. A Gtalk message popped up from an old friend Peter. He was home for the night, kind of bored and asked if I wanted to go out for a late night drink or pizza. I said I wanted to stay in, but we ended up talking about my shitty date. We then went off Gtalk and moved the conversation to phone.

He told me that he’s had a little thing for me for awhile, and he loves my sexual energy. I said we could never date, and he said he knew that, too. Then I said the magic words… “But I always kind of thought we could fuck and we’d be OK…”

So, yeah, I am starting a “Friends with Benefits” relationship. Will it work? Who knows, do they ever really? But in the meantime, I think it will be good for me. If it gets messy, I will deal with that as it comes.

He’s in Europe for work until next Thursday. I get a Brazilian on Friday. We’ll see what happens next weekend.


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